Kracked

Two things. First, because I don't think I can say it again as well:

jambaswirl (2:10:35 AM): existence

jambaswirl (2:10:37 AM): ergh

SollyS3 (2:10:44 AM): ha

jambaswirl (2:12:29 AM): everything is speculation

jambaswirl (2:12:29 AM): fuck it

jambaswirl (2:12:31 AM): lol

jambaswirl (2:12:34 AM): ...gar..

SollyS3 (2:35:43 AM): everything is esentialy meaningless

jambaswirl (2:36:05 AM): saying that is the most useless thing in existence because you attach meaning to things

jambaswirl (2:36:08 AM): and that's all that matters

SollyS3 (2:36:14 AM): I know

SollyS3 (2:36:20 AM): thats definatly true

SollyS3 (2:36:28 AM): but its more like

SollyS3 (2:37:00 AM): I'm feeling right now the meaning I attach is hollow

jambaswirl (2:37:14 AM): owned

SollyS3 (2:37:21 AM): dude

SollyS3 (2:37:27 AM): dirty projectors

SollyS3 (2:37:29 AM): godly

SollyS3 (2:39:12 AM): it just feels like I'm artificialy attaching meaning to everything where meaning isn't implicit

jambaswirl (2:39:39 AM): i feel like

jambaswirl (2:39:45 AM): when you think something is meaningful

jambaswirl (2:39:51 AM): you'll naturally apply meaning to it

SollyS3 (2:40:08 AM): yes

SollyS3 (2:40:31 AM): thats kinda my whole nihilist view

SollyS3 (2:40:48 AM): things are meaningful becasue we make them meaningful

SollyS3 (2:40:58 AM): they don't start that way by themselves

SollyS3 (2:41:54 AM): but what if I'm apllying meaning where I don't actualy think there is meaning

SollyS3 (2:42:23 AM): like when you listen to bad music

SollyS3 (2:42:29 AM): and convice yourself its good

SollyS3 (2:42:55 AM): really I'm just thinking about the notion of love

SollyS3 (2:43:15 AM): and something I herd someone say once

SollyS3 (2:43:41 AM): about how being in love with someone has to do with a need they fulfill in you

SollyS3 (2:44:23 AM): and when they stop fulfilling that need then the love is no longer there

SollyS3 (2:44:44 AM): and I think thats kinda true

SollyS3 (2:45:00 AM): but if it is

SollyS3 (2:45:06 AM): then theirs no real love

SollyS3 (2:45:17 AM): because then all love is condisional

SollyS3 (2:46:12 AM): and so you meet someone and you think, shit, I feel this way and it means we're conected

SollyS3 (2:46:26 AM): and from the nihilist point of view it does mean your conected

SollyS3 (2:46:34 AM): because you've asigned that meaning to it

SollyS3 (2:46:58 AM): but even though you have

SollyS3 (2:47:08 AM): that conection holds no weight

SollyS3 (2:47:21 AM): becasue its just there because you say it is

SollyS3 (2:47:32 AM): and it can blow away like the wind

SollyS3 (2:48:17 AM): the shins have this line "do afections fade away? or do adults just learn to play the most rediculous repulsing games?"

SollyS3 (2:48:29 AM): and that is paramount in my mind resently

SollyS3 (2:48:46 AM): like its screeming in there ocasionaly

SollyS3 (2:48:56 AM): "DO AFECTIONS FADE AWAY?"

jambaswirl (2:52:56 AM): lol epic

jambaswirl (2:53:54 AM): i think

jambaswirl (2:53:58 AM): that this will make you happy for a while

jambaswirl (2:54:00 AM): 
"Parker: MY MOM JUST WALKED IN ON ME FAPPING"

SollyS3 (2:55:45 AM): um

SollyS3 (2:55:46 AM): yes

Second is the other song I wrote the other day:

Never meant for you to follow

found a place where you would never see me

You'd never guess just how proud you would be

I'm gonna laugh until tomorrow

Just gonna take it, my love, its easy

Could not belive how much, my love, its so easy!

Aw don't you think you took too much?

You thought you didn't need a bit of luck?

Maybe you should shake it out, my love

Or have you lost the touch?

Were you ever really right?

I want you to tell me that its all alright

How does this play into your grand insight?

Oh won't you ever fight?

Oh my love are you really there?

It wouldn't do for you to view this gently

Yes that sounds lovely but would you like to try me?

But I really was nowhere

Maybe its time for you to grasp at threads

Do you think it all just could be in your head?

Aw don't you think you took too much?

You thought you didn't need a bit of luck?

Maybe you should shake it out my love

Or have you lost the touch?

Now were you ever really right?

I want you to tell me that its all alright

How does this play into your grand insight?

Oh babe, it might be your night

just this last time