My Favorite Things

theres a song the third track of beck's opus odelay and i think its called lord only knows and it starts with a beat and sharp migraine distortion and he fucking screams but then the guitar cuts out and the drums pick up and the song is a bit light and soft and sweet but it doesn't matter cause all you think about is that three second scream and thats kinda how i feel right now.

silver white winters that melt into springs
these are a few of my favorite things

I Woke Up Today

You may have heard but I'm gonna say it anyway. I might be getting out of here a little early. You see the rent has gone up and my mom is looking at this other place in albany for quite a bit cheaper. The catch is that its only two rooms instead of three. So to make up for that my mom has decided to kick me out. I'm almost defiantly not getting into albany high next year and she thinks that I'm waisting my time here. So I'm going to new york. I figure I'll get a job right a way and live in a dirt cheep place with a room mate or three with my mom sending me some of the money saved on rent. I can get by real cheep. And I'll go to community college in the afternoon to get the high school credits I need. Nothings final yet but I do hope this happens. I'll miss my friends here, particularly the three of you that read this blog. But at the same time I can't wait.

the way it glows
the way it always knows

I like unnamed artwork. It adds anonymity and interpretation and openness. Would Song 2 under the name "Pleased To Meet You" have been the same thing? Would Beethoven's fifth symphony have had the same impact as "Thunder in Eb"? To name it is to take ownership but leaving it anonymous is to give it to the people on the other end of the art. Elliot Smith gave an amount of songs numbers instead of names so that you didn't know what you were getting into until you herd it. Who can say if No Name No. 5 is a love song or an angry song until you've herd it. Led Zeppelin went even further and gave their fourth album no name at all. Manny people call it Led Zeppelin IV, others call ZOSO and Robert Plant says he just thinks of it as the fourth album. And that just works for me.

Hummingbird

So I want to make a mix tape from the prompt talked about a couple posts down. So I got a nice 90 minute tape that would have cost me $5 had I not found it in my garage and I laid out all my music. But I've hit a problem. I don't have many love songs, and 90 minutes is longer than I'm used to. All I'm sure of so far is that the tape is gonna start with She Belongs To Me and end with I Want You, both by bob dylan. So, I need some help finding some more songs. If you know any that would fit let me know.

but I find its just begun

Daydream Believer

New song
Ask me to play it for you

The fighter (tentative title)

the fighter, he bruised my face
the fall is such a waist
and you just wanted to get away from this place

can you teach a man to fly
a hand to say goodbye
can you teach me to not ask why

there must be a matter or two
you must have know I was playing to loose
but there must be something the matter with me
I guess I'd have know you were going to leave

would you please not look me in the eyes
you never want to try
why do you keep me around each time I lie

oh, I could hide 'neath the wings
of the bluebird as she sings

We Will Become Silhouettes

Everything is broken. I like that phrase. Its from the first song on a radiohead album that came out about thirteen years ago and it sums up long term depression, the theme of the record, quite well. When your down you loose interest in what your doing and you run to something else. Computer, guitar, music, tv, video games, they all seem a bit empty. So you do nothing or you do something and pretend your having fun and you lash out at your friends and family for no reason and you go out of your mind. And what ever ends up happening it doesn't matter because everything is broken.

P.S. Does anyone want to come see Someone Still Loves You Boris Yeltsin and Port O'Brian on wednesday for ten dollars?

and pictures of you and I'm not coming out
until this is all over

Where is My Mind?

Please do not tell me you don't like that song because its overplayed, or because those idiots like it, or because the lead singer is an asshole. Ok, I concede that when some moron raves about a track it becomes embarrassing but please, instead of saying "thats far from their best track, though" just say "your pretty dumb, could you just stop talking". Don't let them take that song, or that album, or that band from you. And how often do you listen to the radio anyway? For you overplayed means "herd about six people mention it". And anyway, are you really listening to music for social reasons? I thought you actually liked it. So do me a favor, pretend that no one else ever listened to it, pretend the band doesn't exist. I'm tired of your shit. Just here the fucking music.

your head will collapse but theres nothing in it
and you'll ask yourself, where is my mind?